In his mind, it was nothing much because 'You were on the right track, but you had a lot on your plate and needed help!' I just nod and agree because what else do I say? 'I actually wasn’t. He even helped me budget so I could finally afford health insurance…which wasn’t a moment too soon, because I caught shit right in the nick of time. "But he legit came in and helped me with mom’s estate and cheerleaded me into getting out of a dead-end career and put a stake in the heart of some severely toxic relationships I had. I never felt like I could be anything other than 'The Fixer.' 'The Doer.' 'The Person Who Always Knows What To Say.' 'The Reliable One.' I was not allowed to be negative. ".Three years of taking care of a terminally ill parent taught me how to smile and bear it and feign positivity even when you’re running on empty. He’s a nervous, humble guy who doesn’t like undue pressure or praise, so I keep it to myself just how bad off I was before he showed up because - even in the aftermath of my mom’s death, and even in the face of some pretty nasty health problems (which I was just letting slide because I was so depressed, I was kind of hoping they’d kill me), I was very, VERY good at smiling and being charming.
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